10:08 AM Thursday, July 1, 2010
I found myself staring blankly as a vertical black stick blinked every few seconds.
That was it. I had nothing to write.
It's that time of year again, college admissions. Oh God.
I never imagined myself filling up forms, running around campus to get papers signed and making essays. Yes, I do love writing very much. But I'm too scared the admissions committee might not like what I write. Tas I have to write a kick ass essay for Ateneo pa. It's my only hope getting in that school. And I want to study there soooooo much. Pressure. Being old sucks, seriously. I wish I was little again.
6:59 PM Monday, June 14, 2010
It's odd how I`m not turned off by it.
Yes, I don't know you that well. But I see the good in you. I know your not completely a bad person. Why throw away your life like that? Shit happens, but we just have to keep moving forward.
I`m still wanting the old you, but I guess I can`t bring back time.
Goodbye Summer 2010
1:52 PM Sunday, June 13, 2010
Summer 2010`s officially over. :(
Thank you. You`ve been nice.
Coron, Palawan
Zarah`s birthday-despidida
Review Classes
Zambales
Going back to sleepless nights with coffee mugs.
Hmm, anyone game at trying out the school`s new vendo machine? =)))
P.S
TOY CON THIS WEEKEND
Still no entry for the photo contest. =))
Win.
11:05 PM Friday, June 11, 2010
What I`m loving:
- Glee`s Season Finale. Ohmygoodness. I wanted to cry so badly. =)) Sue does have a heart. :>
- Crayola Twistables Pencil. Yes! I finally have one. :> Might have our parish priest sprinkle holy water on it before the UPCAT. =))))))
- Papa Don`t Preach just might be my new theme song. Except the keeping my baby part. =))
- UAAP Season `73 schedule. I have it. ;;) And I`m sasdfghjkl;' excited. Duper.
- Alcohol.
- Left side bangs. =))
- Camp Rock 2. Comming this September on Disney Channel! :>
- Oovoo made my summer. Video calls with Matsy, Moo & Mar the best.
- Guy friends who help you out on the guy you like. :-bd
- Beastly. I need the book, I want the movie
- Food Photography. You might just be my future.
- Forever 21 in Manila on July. Need to save up money.
- Toy Con 2010 this coming weekend. Omg, I miss.
- Flamming Wings. The best. Need to eat there again.
- Animal Avengers. Love you guys!
What I`m learning to love:
- Skins` second generation. I loved the first gen but Effy`s doing a pretty good job following her brother`s foot steps. =)) And the twins are kinda cute too!
- La Salle being this season`s host. Let`s see what happens, shall we?
- Britannia High. Yeah, Mitch Hewer might have suckish hair there. But the series is kinda cute.
10:56 PM
Daddy`s finally coming home tomorrow. It`s a start of a new more sterilized beginning. No more junk food, fast food & preservatives. That means no more canned goods. Hm, why is it called canned goods anyway? Well of course it`s canned, but what`s with the good. Not all canned goods are good. =))
School`s up on Tuesday. Crap. I`m a Senior.
Just like yesterday I was one of those teeny boppesrs and now. Wow, can`t believe how fast time is.
Summer 2010`s been great. April`s soso, but May was the best. :) Get to learn a lot and try new things. Loads of drama and shit. But yeah, still fun. Summer 2011, please be kind.
8:02 PM Wednesday, June 9, 2010
It stopped.
Everything stopped.
I finally realized I’ve been lying to myself all this time. I thought I wanted so much, but all I needed was you.
College, Paying the doctor bills & what not
1:55 PM Saturday, June 5, 2010
College.
In a few days time I'll be going back to school. We'll be having numerous admission talks, application forms to be submitten, courses to be chosen, schools to be lined up for. But I'm quite not sure which one.
I've set my eyes on Ateneo since Freshman year. It has been my motivation, the reason why I was working my butt off. But it seems I had forgot the real reason why I wanted to go there in the first place. I had planned out my future without even considering if I am capable of achieving it. I really need to fall in love with the school all over again.
My Mom's been pushing me towards UP now, maybe cause if I get in. It would be a big help to Dad's medical expenses. We're already having trouble paying the doctor bills, I deffinately do not want to be a burden. They keep telling me na a lot of things will change now that Dad's diagnosed with cancer. I m not sure if that's a good thing or not. To be honest, I am kind of scared. Being used to the old lifestyle and all, there are a lot of sacrifices. *shivers* So, there's no 18th birthday for me. I wanted that pa naman so bad. Things I do for you, family.
Growing up is hard, we have to face decisions and things like this. Oh well, hope it all ends well.
